Monday, November 26, 2007
three quarters of a year since i blogged,
Seven months since i enlisted..
though i wished for the first entry to be of a lighter tone, the reason that i came back to write was of that nature.
U know..when u sit on top of a tower for 9 hours a day.. looking at the serene waters surrounding you, it sets u thinking about alot of things... mostly unclassified so MSD cannot read my blog and charge me for leaking army informations.
between feb to this current date,many things happen, often too fast and furious for one to sit down and digest the day's happening. a few months just zoomed pass after that. a lvl results..shave botak..shave botak again..enrolment to uni for the girls..change of working environment..
though time still flies like "insert a less sensitive word than bullets here", my work nature allows me to sit back and ponder. there seemed to be many things discarded by me thoughout these few months which was left at the back of my mind until recently excavated..things which i look back to regret, to laugh about, to feel sad over...
the characteristics of this particular blogger is such that he often thinks only about himself, forgetting other's feelings, often drowning himself in distractions so that he doesnt have to deal with problems present..escapism or wadever its called and hope that time eventually does washes it away.
Now, this individual, perhaps after going through army, has come to realise that the his past deeds seems disgustable, wrong and stupid. He has come to appreciate past kind gestures which unfortunately, IS the past.
This blogger did some cleaning up of his dog nest and came across his box of memories, mostly letters from frens and some other assortments. It does bring back memories of past experiences which was locked up deep inside.
This entry perhaps serves as an appreciation to ppl this blogger overlooked,ignored, hurt. Perhaps its to attract attention.
Perhaps its a way for this blogger to feel better about himself.
Perhaps he selfishly hopes that he could gain back those lost memories.
Perhaps he wants to move on from the past.
On a lighter note... i would like to apologise to this ah-ma for not being able to make it for the LinkinPark concert. PAI SEH...... =/ i got duty that day...and no more leave to take X_X, though the ticket was abit expensive too haha. and here's the cutest sorry i can conjure... SoRRrWIeee....... bleh *pukes*
I remember this teacher of mine once said during our orientation camp (not simon leow,god).. everyone have different qualities which they are attracted to. If the giver portrays qualities which the receiver looks out for, and vice versa, then things would work out. This doesnt just work for love relationships, it applies for frens and work too. its kinda hard explaining given that i forgot the gist of it, so... shant elaborate.
to individuals who cared for me back then and received the cold shoulders, sorry doesnt even help at this point, but its the best i can do. some whom are doing well, good for ya (= to the others whom disappeared from my radar...i hope for the best. and to those that are still in contact, dota pals, s33 peeps, army dudes, my bunkies, and lastly my dear...well, we'll move on from here.
Seven months since i enlisted..
though i wished for the first entry to be of a lighter tone, the reason that i came back to write was of that nature.
U know..when u sit on top of a tower for 9 hours a day.. looking at the serene waters surrounding you, it sets u thinking about alot of things... mostly unclassified so MSD cannot read my blog and charge me for leaking army informations.
between feb to this current date,many things happen, often too fast and furious for one to sit down and digest the day's happening. a few months just zoomed pass after that. a lvl results..shave botak..shave botak again..enrolment to uni for the girls..change of working environment..
though time still flies like "insert a less sensitive word than bullets here", my work nature allows me to sit back and ponder. there seemed to be many things discarded by me thoughout these few months which was left at the back of my mind until recently excavated..things which i look back to regret, to laugh about, to feel sad over...
the characteristics of this particular blogger is such that he often thinks only about himself, forgetting other's feelings, often drowning himself in distractions so that he doesnt have to deal with problems present..escapism or wadever its called and hope that time eventually does washes it away.
Now, this individual, perhaps after going through army, has come to realise that the his past deeds seems disgustable, wrong and stupid. He has come to appreciate past kind gestures which unfortunately, IS the past.
This blogger did some cleaning up of his dog nest and came across his box of memories, mostly letters from frens and some other assortments. It does bring back memories of past experiences which was locked up deep inside.
This entry perhaps serves as an appreciation to ppl this blogger overlooked,ignored, hurt. Perhaps its to attract attention.
Perhaps its a way for this blogger to feel better about himself.
Perhaps he selfishly hopes that he could gain back those lost memories.
Perhaps he wants to move on from the past.
On a lighter note... i would like to apologise to this ah-ma for not being able to make it for the LinkinPark concert. PAI SEH...... =/ i got duty that day...and no more leave to take X_X, though the ticket was abit expensive too haha. and here's the cutest sorry i can conjure... SoRRrWIeee....... bleh *pukes*
I remember this teacher of mine once said during our orientation camp (not simon leow,god).. everyone have different qualities which they are attracted to. If the giver portrays qualities which the receiver looks out for, and vice versa, then things would work out. This doesnt just work for love relationships, it applies for frens and work too. its kinda hard explaining given that i forgot the gist of it, so... shant elaborate.
to individuals who cared for me back then and received the cold shoulders, sorry doesnt even help at this point, but its the best i can do. some whom are doing well, good for ya (= to the others whom disappeared from my radar...i hope for the best. and to those that are still in contact, dota pals, s33 peeps, army dudes, my bunkies, and lastly my dear...well, we'll move on from here.
Zero-Niner, Roger...out 7:49 PM